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Small update, HUGE picture update and baked Halloween biscuts.

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 02:44:53 GMT

Ok. So, I have a ton of pictures I need to make an update with, also Laela and I made Halloween Pumpkin Spice Biscuts. Lot's of fun, she loved it. I got pictures of that as well. We were board, Jay is out of town on business and wont be back until the weekend then he is leaving again until the next weekend. So, we are going to have a lonely couple of boring weeks :-p ... Laela was sooo upset when he left, at first she wanted to go with him, then she thought he was joking/playing with her, he went to the car and forgot something and had to come back in and she got all excited and started laughing then he went back out and she thought he was playing, he started to back out and she kept laughing and acting like it was a game then when he got all the way out of the drive way and drove off and screamed "NOO, DADDDY!" and busted out crying, I felt so bad for her, everytime a car would go by she would run to the window screaming daddy :-( .. She's fine now, but keep's asking to see the pictures of "Dada and Lae lae" on the computer.lol. Well, not right now because it's 9pm and she is asleep :P.

But anyway, here is my fertility chart, I am hoping I get some good news at the end of the month. Which is when AF is due. My BBT is all screwed up on my chart, so you might as well not even pay attention to that.lol. It's really hard for me to temp right now and get accurate results. So, my temps are screwy. I know when I ovulated but not going by my temps. Going by my CM and CP is WAY easier/ accurate for me right now. And also, since I've started my periods back after having Laela when I ovulate it hurts REALLY bad and when I say REALLY I am not exagerating, so bad that we cant even DTD on the day of ovulation, because it hurts when I move. The couple of days leading up to ovulation my ovaries, start hurting and gives me a very uncomfortable feeling, it's a specific feeling that I KNOW is nothing other then ovulation pain (mittlesmertz). So, that combined with CM and CP are def. indications of ovulation for me now. So, basically I am just on the 2 week wait, I am 5/6 DPO right now so less then 2 weeks to go :) , I am not putting to much hope into missing AF. BUT anyway. Here is my FF chart, it will only confuse you if you try to understand it due to the crazy temps.lol. But I shall show anyway :-) there are some major big swings in my temps, but again it's because it's hard for me to get an accurate BBT reading right now,for 1) I have a crappy thermometer and 2) Laela still wakes up at night and it makes it harder for me to get a temp after so many hrs of sleep and I cant do it at the same time each morning because of this.Plus some of them are not exactly accurate because something crazy happened to my chart and almost all my temps were in the 30's I had to go back through and try to remember around what they were and fix them, I have a good memory but I am not sure I got them all exactly back to what they were at the time.lol. and I should mention that I wasn't temping until halfway into my cycle. So, that's another reason why it looks confusing.

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/earthydoula

Ok, now for pictures. First here are the pictures of us making the Pumpkin Spice Halloween biscuts (P.S ignore the typo's on the pictures Laela was all over me and it was already taking me 3x as long as it should to edit them.lol.). and if you cant tell what they are, there is pumpkins, ghosts, cats, witches, bats and a moon.

And these are the kind of cookie cutters we got. We got them from wal-mart $1.88 a set.

How we done it? I will try. Some of it I don't know exactly how much I put, like the flour but for the most part I know everything else..

1 /2 cup of sugar and a 1/2 cup of butter, mixed together.

Then add

1/2 cup of canned pumpkin pie mix
1 egg
1/2 teaspoon of vanilla

mix these together before adding to the above.

1 cup of flour
1/2 teaspoon of salt
1/2 teaspoon of baking soda
1/2 teaspoon of grown cinnamon

Then slowly mix in with above.

It turned out to be not solid enough, so I just added 1/2 cup of flour, mixed it up, still not right so I just kept adding more flour until I got it into the dough it should be. Just couldn't tell you how much more I added :P

For the glaze, I put.. Butter, small amount of brown sugar, 1 teaspoon of the pumpkin pie mix and a small amount of vanilla in a cup heated it up and then brushed it over the biscuts when they were done.

Ok, now on to other pictures.

** In the care getting ready to leave to go eat lunch with daddy, OH! and those are the other longies I made her :D

I love this picture, she looks like she was posing for me.

I was trying to get a picture of her halloween diaper and shirt but she kept trying to get away from me in most of these pics.

Here she was showing off one of the new diapers I made recently.

NURSING 22 months!

Random picture, she was saying/signing please for somthing.lol.

I don't know what she was doing here.lol. But love the expression on her face :P

And Sat we drove up to VA to see Jay's grandmother, and on the way back we stopped at the NC welcome center so that's whre these pictures were took.
**Jay and Laela.

She wanted to mess with everything on the ground instead of lettng me take a picture.lol. so in this picture she is showing me a leaf.

This one she finally looked at me a smiled after about 20 tries!

Lael and daddy before we got back in the car.

and finally a bad one of Laela and I before leaving the welcme center.

back in car on the way home :)

And here is a picture of Laela at my mom's today, she was sleeping on top of my mom's dog with elmo beside them.lol.

Laela 20 months old-Lots of pics plus updates.

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 07:17:19 GMT

Laela will be 20 months old tomorrow! I cant believe it,only 4 short months until she is 2! I just cant believe how fast time is going by,I feel like we were just getting ready for her first birthday,now I am thinking of ideas for her 2nd :( It amazes me to look back and see how much she has changed,especially recently,she is growing up and learning so fast....She is potty training,she's doing pretty good with it.But she LOVES the potty,sometimes she puts up a major fight to stay away from it and refuses to put her diaper or pull up back on.lol.Her hair has gotten longer,though I cant help but wonder how long it would be now if we hadn't cut it back in May :( But she needed it cut.She is about 21 lbs now,still 30.5 -31 inches long,she deosn't 'grow' very fast as you can see.lol...She talks A LOT,and I do mean a lot,she says just about everything,almost anything you tell her to say she will do it,unless it's a 'harder/longer' word,but she did say Delicious the other day.lmao,but haven't got her to say it again,she also knows who Barack Obama is!! hahaha....Jay was watching a video on youtube and she was like 'Daddy!' (LOL) and we were like "No,that's Obama" and she started laughing and pointing to it going "Mama,mama,mama" and I said "Barack Obama" and she looked at me and said "Bock Omamaaaaa" and just started laughing,now when she see's picture or anything of him she starts going crazy saying "O-mama,O-mama,Bock! O-mama!" Ahh I wish I could get a video of her doing it.lol. She loves babies,and purses,and makeup and ANYTHING girly,She tried to nurse her baby dolls or better yet she tries to get me to nurse them.LOL.or any of her stuffed animals,she loves "cooking" too,signing and dancing,she is counting to 3,but sometimes her counts come out 2,a,e.LOL.And she is calling my mom,Jay and I all Mama.lol.She knows who is who and does say Daddy/Dada and Nani but she seems to like saying "mama" better,she tries to dress herself but often puts her legs in her shirts or tries to put her pants over her head :P and she has 6 teeth on bottom and 6 on top,so a total of 12 teeth! She has her 4 front teeth on the top and bottom then she has a molar on each side up at the top and bottom.OH,and a woman came up to us randomly in wal-mart and was talking about Laela,about her features,her hair,her eyes,her lips how good of posture she has Etc Etc.And told us that she done baby modeling and thought Laela was one of the prettiest babies she had ever seen and wanted to know if we were interested in doing anything with it.We told her no though,I have always been basically against baby/child modeling,but I guess what I am really against is the way a lot of parents do,no so much the baby/child modeling but the level that parents take it too.She gave her her card and actually seemed legit,I mean it wasn't an encounter like when I was 15 -16 and some random nobody guy came up to me the mall and asked me for my name and told me how beautiful I was and that I had "the look" he had been looking for,but he looked like a nasty purvey nobody and couldn't even provide me with a card,only some tore of paper with sloppy hand writing with his 'name' and number on it and wanted me to 'meet' him for this and that.HAHA,yeah right,I told him my name was Monica and then I hurried away from his as soon as possible.lol.This woman was really nice and really did seem legit and since she gave me a card and everything,I didn't have that bad of a feeling about her.BUT,we've talked about it and I just don't know,Jay and I both know how baby/child modeling can turn out and how we disagree with the steps a lot of parents take in 'making' their children do things,and both of us KNOW that if we done it we would keep in low key and once/if it stopped or wasn't fun for anyone we wouldn't pursue anything in it,I know that we would be smart in the decisions/choices we made with it,But I just don't know if I would be comfortable taking the chance still.. But anyway!

About TTC,my periods all whacked up,my last cycle was 23 days and it's been over 23 days since my last period and I haven't started yet,but negative pregnancy tests,so I don't know when or IF I will even have a period this month,since we are still breastfeeding,I am sure it is playing a factor in my cycles being more irregular,Laela still nurses pretty much on demand most of the time AND she still nurses at night.So,still nursing quite often,plus I am sure my body isn't totally back to normal with the change in hormones from my IUD and everything being taken out in May..But my cycles are just soo messed up right now I don't know when I am coming and going with it.I thought I would be starting my period this week,but now I seem to be ovulating!,I have the right CM,my ovaries are hurting(they always hurt like this when I ovulate),I haven't checked my BBT today but I am not sure with that and no signs of my period..Jay was just switched to 3rd supervisor which SUCKS! But hopefully it wont be for long! just until they can hire someone for the position then he will be back to 1st shift.So,if I am ovulating
right now it would be a great time for him to be HOME.lol.

Anyway,I have lots of new pictures from over the past couple of days.

First these are picture of the sky I took the other day,I couldn't beleive it looked like this.I don't think I have ever seen the sunset/sky look that intense,it actually looked like there was fire in the sky..

Pictures of Laela,yep she still can fit her 'I love booies' shirts,which we got at like 6-7 months old.lol.I told you she is a petite little thing :P

Nursing pictures,No dirty comments!,keep your BS to yourself if you can see the beauty in them :) K? :D

Sleeping

"Driving" No worries,the car wasn't even on :p

Laela and Jay

Eating at Golden Coral

Laela and I at Golden Coral

In wal-mart after eating

And about the big bandage on her arm,She has what is thought to be a big spider bite :( I think she may have gotten it at my moms,because my mom lives back out in the woods kind of.So,she was complaining about it and kept messing with it so it got badaged up with some stuff on it to suck the poison out(if it's a spider bite,alomost positive it is) and then we took it off last night and it aleady looked A LOT better.

Finally an update.

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 09:08:17 GMT

So,I've realized that I have totally neglected my LJ but fot the longest time I couldn't even get it to sign in :\ So,not totally my fault :) Anyway,this is more of just a picture update. Doing it in my LJ makes it easier to show the pictures on other sites and everything so I will just post them all here. Laela will be 19 months next week,she talks up a storm, though she doesn't like letting people know it.lol. She knows well over 100 words.I've tried to get video's of her talking but she never wants to cooperate when the camera is on :p I've got a video of her telling where her body parts are,eye's,nose,mouth,teeth,ears,hands,legs,feet(or deet as she says.lol.)and she learnt a new one a few days ago which was "Arm Pit"..LOL.This was her doings,she raised up her arm and said "wa ths dis".lol. She's a stinker. But I decided to try and get some good new pictures of her and since she LOVES being "At-tide"(outside) I took her outside to take the pictures :p She didn't cooperate in most of them but a few of them came out pretty good :) People keep telling me how "mature" she looks like she looks like a little adult.lol. I always just see her as my baby but looking at some of these pictures I can see it. And no she didn't get her ears pierced,they are Elmo clip ons :P And sorry for any typos in this,I have seriously been up all night :) Ok on to the pictures>>

She loves the flowers

She was saying she wanted a hug.lol.

One of my faves

Here's a couple of pictures of Laela and I at a friends house friday after work,I look kind of 'icky' in these pictures,I didn't feel good and I was really tired..

And nursing trying to go to sleep :P

Oh,and here is a picture of her in the bathtub the other day.She got into the shaving cream :P

Oh,and random,but I have 2 ring slings that I made a few weeks ago and am not using them,I want to sale them so if anyone is interested let me know.
Here are some pictures of them,they are really nice silky material,I love them,but I have enough slings and need to get rid of these.(you should be able to click the picture to see them bigger)

Updates,big news and pictures!

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 05:26:01 GMT

Ok.So,I have some big news I have been wanting to mention but couldn't yet (and really shouldn't even now,just yet anyway.lol) but I cant wait any longer,I have been wanting to talk about this now for like 2 weeks. I haven't been around much lately and this will tell you why.

First off,Jay got offered a REALLY good career opportunity and it has worked out PERFECT. As everyone new already we were/are moving to the east coast the end of the year. Well,Jay was offered this job and gave the choice of moving to VA and working in D.C or moving to NC (and of course working there) and since we already wanted to be in NC we chose NC,closer to my family and everything.So,it's perfect. This is REALLY great and a major big blessing and an amazing opportunity for him and our family. Big big news! We are buying a house! This is why I have been so busy, It's amazing but it's been so stressful and hectic and just *ahh*! Everything has been so up and down and everything I haven't had time for chit chat much on line or anything, I don't have pictures of THE house yet (I WISH I did) but I have pictures of the model and the floor plan.So,I will show those. I wasn't going to even mention this until at least next month or after we actually moved and everything but I cant wait any longer,now I just hope everything comes through like it's supposed so I don't have to back tract and say plans changed.lol. Everything has been majorly rushed causing to be more stressful and hectic. The guy Jay will be working for actually wanted us moved by the end of the Oct! We were like "There is NO WAY that can happen",So,we will be moving next month (hopefully) depending on how fast all this goes with the house and everything either way I will be flying to NC no later then Dec 1st. The house is a 2 story house,3900 sq feet, 4 bed room,3.5 baths,2 car garage,and the floor plan will show you everything.lol.I cant wait to show ACTUAL pictures of everything when we move though!

Now Laela is going to be 1 year old next month! I can NOT believe how fast this year has past. It's unbelievable. She will be 11 months old next week. She is a little terror and THE biggest drama queen.She isn't fully walking yet,like she cant tag along behind you or anything but she is getting there,she take a few steps and then down then up again takes a few more steps then down,but she's working on it,I know she will be running around within a couple of weeks.lol. She still measures 26-27 inches long and I honestly don't know if that is right or not it doesn't make to much since because it would mean she hasn't gotten any taller since her 9 month check up which I guess they could have been wrong,I mean she is short as ever but I don't know,I just measure her over and over and keep getting the same thing. She says "Bye bye" it's her favorite right now,"Heeeyyy" and yes she will drag it out like that.lol. "Ba-be" which is baby,"mama" and "de de de dada de de de"..lol. Those are her main things right now.O yeah and she is getting her 5th tooth! uhg scary! It's the 3rd tooth on the top it's on the right side. Ok this is long so I will stop here and show the pictures :D

O, YEAH! I knew I was forgetting something.lol. My OTHER big news is I GOT A CAR! YAY,finally! It's not new but it's new to me.lol. It's a 2003 Mercedes benz ml350 and it's silver!

Ok,I feel better for telling about all this,it's been driving me crazy and Jay kept saying "Don't mention it to a bunch of people yet!" and it's like planning a wedding and not being able to share the news with people.lol. I couldn't waint any longer :p

Ok so here is pictures of the house, Again this the 'Model pictures" but the house looks like this.

Upstairs floor plan

Down stairs.

The car/SUV,but this isn't mine.lol. It's from google images but it looks like this.

Now my baby bug :p
Laela and I walking,if someone can come up with a good quote for this pictures please let me know ;)

No expression at all.lol.

Again no expression :p

One of my faves,I love how the sun is shinning up in the corner above her head :)

She LOVES looking out at the sliding glass door.

This ones pretty gross.lol.She has a string of slobber from her mouth to her finger she was trying to look at it :p

Goofing around on the bed

Laela and mommy :D

Laela and her goofy-ness.lol.

Laela's 10 month photo shoot.

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 21:43:28 GMT

Laela's 10 month photo's. She wouldn't co-operate for anything. So,I done the best I could.lol. She kept wanting to jump off and make crazy faces and move around and all kinds of stuff. But I came out with a few decent one's my faves are the last 3

10 months old BIG update and pictures...

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 07:44:57 GMT

In advance SORRY this is so long.It's about a couple of different things.

Laela is 10 months old today! Can you believe it? I cant!..lol.
Only 2 months until she is 1! It's crazy.

So,we are celebrating 10 months breastfeeding! yay I'm so proud of myself. There were so many times in the beginning I just wanted to give up and I kept going.I cant believe I have done it for almost a year

She can take 2-3 steps now. But not all the time. She's getting better at it though.She will probably be walking within a month I don't know how I feel about that.LOL.

She's so goofy and silly and such a happy baby,I cant believe it's been almost a year.She has learned so much and changed so much.

She like's Cheerios and Gerber "puffs" but those are the ONLY things she will eat.And she wont even let me put them in her mouth she has to do it herself.lol. Other then that she is really picky and refuses everything but boob Which most of you already know.

She's about 18.5 lbs and still SHORT gah she's only like 27-28 inches if that.lol. Last time I measured her was about a week ago and I got 26" but I am not comletely sure it was right because she is so wiggly and didn't want me doing it but I done it twice and got the same thing.So, I don't know. She's STILL in size 3-6 month clothes. Even if the 'weight range' is less then what she supposedly weighs. Everyone is always like "Babies grow out of those small clothes so fast,you don't need many of them" and I'm thinking not Laela.lol. She is still wearing the same clothes for months! She can wear some 6-9 and the occasional "12 months" that is not really 12 months the tag just says it is..But mostly still 3-6 months. I am trying to figure out what size she will be wearing this winter when she IS 12 months. I have size 12 months winter clothes and hopefully she will fit into them. Everyone still says she is 'small'. But she weighs 18 lbs.lol. And everyone always says "WOW,she looks so much bigger in her pictures!". About 3 people in the store recently walked up to me and was like "Awe,how old is she" Me:"9 1/2 almost 10 months" and they are like "OMG she's so small!" I DON'T GET IT! She looks normal size to me.lol. She is still in the same percentile she was in at birth so her size is perfect for HER why don't people understand that? I think it's kind of rude and ignorant. I mean what if she was born preemie or something weighing 2 lbs her size would be HUGE for her then people don't think and it annoys me.

She was born in between the 25th and 50th percentile for height and weight.
And she is still around the same thing.

Anyway. I don't really know what size to get her Halloween costume. I found this neat site.Babystyle.com it has 2$ shipping on ANY costume if you use the code "TREAT" I think I may get the Octopus Costume. I read the weight range for 6-12 mo's so hopefully that one will fit her.

I also think the Silly Legs Caterpillar Bunting is ADORABLE and soo cheap someone should get it.lol.

Anyway onto other things.
I am going to NC Dec first,On my mom's bday,I will not be coming back to TX and wont be able to be online hardly at all for awhile Jay will be here until the End of Jan So,we will be up there without him..But we will be giving Laela's 1st bday party here then I will be going to NC and we are planning on having a 'second first bday party' for Laela there it will be part for her and my mom though.That way my family and friends can celebrate her 1st birthday too. Jay will be flying or driving up there for Christmas though so he can spend Christmas with us. It's going to be a really busy time and I will be at my mom's most of the time so my internet access will be VERY limited when and if I am able to get on.So,I will miss all you guys. I will end this now though since it's already to long and most of you probably don't have time to read all this anyway.lol. So,ended with some 'random' pictures.I will do a little 10 month photo shoot of Laela maybe tomorrow or something when I get time and update with some better pictures.

Laela in her UT diaper (Daddy's doing's.lol.He HAD to have a Longhorns diaper for her.Now she has 2 so he should be happy)

Breastfeeding 10 months.

Random weird pictures.lol.

Bahaha,I know it says "Cheeriors"..LOL.

Lada da da da :p

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 19:22:43 GMT

Laela finally scored those babylegs she has been wanting ;) hehe. Plus her new just ducky AIO's came today also. She must really like the baby legs-as soon as I got them out of the envelope she ripped them out of my hand and started trying to get them out of the package.lol.

Trying to get something out from under the bed,lol.

Fell asleep :p

This is what I put up with.LOL.nursing a monkey.

And here are the diapers :D

Nana's bottom AIO's :-D yay.

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 04:32:28 GMT

I got Laela 3 Nana's bottom AIO's and just got them in the mail a couple of days ago. I LOVE them. And they aren't breaking her out. They have a flannel inner. I will def be getting more. They fit her really well and you can pick from flannel,cotton knit,cotton woven,MF,SC,velour,terry, birdseye AND sherpa!. Great selection . Especially since it's super hard for me to find stuff that doesn't break Laela out.I got a greap color,magenta and raspberry Anyway. Here are pictures of her in one of them (sorry had to share I'm excited )

Well this is just her standing she isn't in one of her nana's bottom's..lol. She's just standing with her "stash" but theres about 12 missing (in the wash

Tons of pictures~update.

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 05:01:32 GMT

Ok update on Laela being sick.
As I mentioned before. She was sick last week and had to go to the doctor. We were told it was 'thought to be a viral stomach infection' and if it got worse bring her back in a couple of days. Well she seemed to be getting better.And we had to go to Dallas over the weekend. Her fever went away and everything she just acted like she still didn't feel the best but was getting over whatever she had. Sat she woke up with a few litttle red bumps on her face and I just thought maybe it was caused by the fever she had had,And I even thought maybe she had had scarlatina and it was a scarlatina rash and would go away shortly. Well Sat night she was up ALL night crying and crying.I would get her to sleep and 30 mins later she would be crying again and REALLY really crying like something was really wrong. By Sun morning when we got up around 5am because she couldn't even go back to sleep anymore,the rash was TERRIBLE! I knew there was something wrong then.She wouldn't nurse,wouldn't let anyone touch her,cried and cried. The rash was on her hands,wrests,all over her face,neck even on her head. I cant even explain what it looked like. We took her to the ER and basically the Dr.acted like I was an idiot,he never told me what the damn rash was all he said was 'I think it's an allergic reaction to her diapers' (she was wearing huggies over the weekend while we were out of town) I tried explaining everything to him and he still acted like I was stupid.So, my only option was to go to Target or wal-mart and buy those stupid gerber prefolds! uhg.So,Jay went and got some of those and some of those vinyl gerber covers.lol. The doctor gave us 2 antihistamines-Zyrtec and basically something the same thing as Benadryl and Prednisolone which is a steroid to clear the rash up. Benadryl every 6 hrs,Zyrtec once a day and Prednisolone once a day for 5 days. I put the Gerber pre-folds on her and gave her her med and by the next morning the rash was 10x better,and she was already in a better mood. She is doing A LOT better she still has a little bit of the rash but nothing compared to what it was and she is being happy goofy Laela most of the time now :D yay!

Anyway. Here are some pictures taken within the last week and some videos. She is getting to be such a big girl! I cant believe how fast she is growing up. She looks like a 'little girl' now not a baby :( She's 17.5 lbs and about 28inches long. And she looks like a little chubba dub in her pictures.lol.

Acting crazy in the pack-n-play.lol.

She also fell yesterday and bashed her head into the sliding glass door :( Took pictures she was fine but had a big red bump on her head for a couple of hrs,You can obviously see by the pictures that she was ok.lol. And look at all that hair my goodness! ok you cant really even see the red bump in the pictures.

Ok and this is our night trying to lay down in the crib.lol. It goes in order.
~~Put in the crib

2 seconds later " Oops you cought me"

Laid back down

2 secs later.lol.

About 30 mins later

And then about 30 mins after that.lol.

Terrible family pics blaahhhh.

Now videos.
She got her new Swaddlebees ABC cover a couple of days ago.Here is a video of us using it with a CPF.

Playing in the crib Getting mad at me.lol.

Doctors appointment.

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 03:51:48 GMT

I'm going to try and make this short,I only have one hand so sorry in advance for terrible typing.

Laela has been sick since tuesday.

She starting out being really fussy and whining and crying all day tues,wouldn't let me do anything hardly wanted to nurse Etc. Not being herself at all. She felt a little warm but not enough to really cause concern.By about 2am she was worse,and burning up! I took her temp and it automaticaly shot up to 101.8 and the she wouldn't let it finish.She woke up every half hr crying,wouldn't sleep.By abput 7am she felt like a little heater when you would hold her,you could feel the heat before you touched her.Her temp was 102-103+ she was really fussy all day yesterday, tylenol wasn't helping nothing.She was spitting up,not really throwing up but spitting up isn't normal for her.Seriously in 9 months the ONLY time she spit up was when she was allergic to dairy and I had to cut that out around 8 weeks old since then she hasn't spit up once.So, of course that wasn't normal,she's had an upset stomach.All night last night she was burning up,had a high fever by 7am I gav her more tylenol and called the pedi,her other appt for her 9 month check up had to be canceled b/c her dr wasn't in.So,I called and asked if someoneelse could go ahead and see her today,the got her in at 11:35 for a quick check with a Dr. I've never met there before. She said she has a viral infection and that if she doesn't get better in a day or to to take her to the H since they cant see her it will be the weekend. She's never been sick before .She's been realy clingy and mopy today.I feel so bad for her.She wont let me do anything but hold her.She wants to nurse for comfort but she doesn't want to nurse at all because she feels bad,she acts a little confused and heart broken,like I'm supposed to fix it and I cant .So,that's what's going on. Sorry if I'm not around much right now.I hope this passes soon and she at least feels a bit better by tomorrow.

She will have her regular check up next week.

Home from houston (VENT).

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 06:15:27 GMT

We just got back from Houston. We spent the weekend at my FIL's.
I swear he pisses me off to no end!. Why can he not just keep his mouth shut about the things I/we do with Laela and how WE parent.

He just really bugs the shit out of me. I mean he has had a problem with me breastfeeding since the beginning,He has said stuff to Jay before about "WHY do you use CLOTH DIAPERS" over the weekend he was went into this thing about how I NEED to put Laela in daycare and get a job,and kept telling people "She isn't used to PEOPLE,Karah's a SAHM" WTH!! OMG,you don't even know how bad this pissed me off. Has he not ever heard of things like Play groups!,mommy meetings,church! He pissed me off so bad. I was like "NO the reason she doesn't want to come to you is because she is NEVER around you, what do you think I do hang around aliens? she isn't used to people? WTH" then he said something about me breastfeeding and went into this thing about how Laela needs to be eating 'REAL' food now not breastmilk. And Jay was like "well actually she is fine on breast milk and NEEDs to continue nursing until at leat a year,her pedi told us that she would actually be perfectly healthy on nothing but breast milk for the first year if that was all she wanted or would take" and he was like "uh NO that's WRONG" and Jay was like "Well dad,we actually researched it ourselves to find out and we found various things that proved it was true" and he just looked at him weird and then shut up..

Jay was like "Tell him everything you know, prove to him that you know what you are doing,prove to him that you have done your reading and learned about all this stuff. Let him know WHY you choose to breastfeed,Etc Etc"

But the problem with that is it would be a waste of time,he doesn't listen and if I set him down and was like "look,I do this and that for these reasons" and told him how I felt and told him what I knew about the things I do and don't do he is the kind of person who would just shrug it off and think I was an idiot and that I just 'THINK' instead of realizing they are TRUE things I don't make up about breastfeeding and stuff. It's like the things I do aren't 'normal' being normal to him would be doing things just like everyone else does them and the only reason it would be 'normal' is because every body does it. It's like 'breastfeeding isn't normal,everyone uses formula,that's what it's made for" like WTH,and what the heck do you think they did before formula ever started being made! that's the kind of person he is. Or "It's not normal for her to not be sleeping in a crib" ok and why not? I mean seriously! I am just so fed up with his BS and tired of him always running his mouth when it comes to things he doesn't know ANYTHING about.

I guess he thinks that because he is older,and he has 8 kids all by different woman that makes him an expert. Never mind the fact that he hasn't been a dad to any of his kids. He didn't raise Jay and his sister, he hasn't raised the 3 kids who don't even live in the same state he does,he sends them money and that's it! WTH does he know? About being a REAL parent.ya know?

It's like he thinks I don't have any sense and don't know what I am doing because I do these things. It looks to me like I am the one using a little more sense,I am actually putting THOUGHT into the things I want to do,I am actually looking into different things and figuring out what is going to REALLY benefit me and my family. I took time to learn about all these different things and figure out what I feel is right for us and figure out what I wanted to do with my child(ren). Instead of just going with what everyone else does because everyone else does it .So, it MUST be right. uhg! Why are people like that,why cant he see what I am doing and realize that I DO know what I am doing and just because he chose to do something else that doesn't make what I am doing "wrong","abnormal", or "weird".

I don't care what people think about the things I do, I KNOW everyone doesn't agree with EVERYONE and everything parents chose to do and if people don't like some of the things I choose to do as a parent they can suck it up and get over it. I am just sick of hearing him run his mouth and act like we (well mainly me)are idiots and don't know what we are doing.There's only so much a person can take,he knows how to keep his mouth shut and he needs to do it.

Ok,I feel a little better.lol.

on another note here is a couple of pictures of Laela from the weekend :p

Totaled car

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 10:23:15 GMT

Jay, Came in this morning around 4am and woke me up with a "The car is totaled!" me being half asleep,I didn't know what he was talking about and it took me a minute to realize what he said. Although not as bad as that sounds. It was just considered "not drivable". He didn't get hurt or anything,just the front light was knocked out and front on the driver side is messed up,the door wont open,He hit a poll backing out of a parking space.Assuming he was obviously going faster backing out then he thinks,if he weren't going fast then it wouldn't have messed it up so bad he would have hit it and stopped before it completely ripped the head light out if he were going as slow as he claims.If you get the picture.

Right now we have a rental car a 2007 Impala,which we don't even know how long we are going to have to rent this car. They cant even look at ours until Friday of next week! And after they look at it there is no telling how much longer it will be before it actually get's fixed and we get it back.

here is pictures of the car. You cant really tell all the damage from these it does kind of look worse in person but it still isn't THAT bad.
http://i138.photobucket.com/albums/q272/Earthy_Mama/100_5154.jpg
http://i138.photobucket.com/albums/q272/Earthy_Mama/100_5148.jpg